wooooooooo! zipadeedoodah-zipadeeday-mymymy what a wonderful day
lol hereherehere i am after a month a half.
i planned to abandon this shit man but im sooo bored im gonna actually update.
i know, damn gg right T-T
guess what guess what omg, i was walking at emm, Bentley's yesterday? and i saw the prettiest girl EVER! i mean i saw alot before her but when i saw this girl i knew she was fucking the one one and so i took her out and tried her out. XD i even asked my mum and she said yesyesyes hohoho. and so i went to buy clothes for her. it happens she's a rocker so i got her this Metal Distortion dress that made her look even better. so i bought them and brought her home, then decided to name her Jessie. so everyone meet Jessie =]
ohhkay wtf she's my new guitar lah okay. but fucking hell i love her like fuuuck.
soooo nothing much has been going on.
sports carnival, yellow house.
nothing much to elaborate lo so go figure.
im not really in the mood now im dammn tired though i managed to skip school today ahahhahaa.
dilemma dilemma. its like either i forget about books and go for the real shit already, or stay around and wait for i dont know what. T-T i guess i'd be going.
lol. i guess imma go now. need to teman my jessie =D
nights!
Let's rock IT ; 4:58 AM ;
1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
i would party all night till the break of dawn. its obvious what the answer is right -.-. i'll be sad and not party, and not drink, and all that. =D
2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to have whatever i dream to do come true.
3. What will your dream wedding be like?
hmmm, i'd like my wedding to be small, and not too public i guess.
4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
i've got everything lined up already, its just whether i CAN do it or not
5. What's your ideal lover like?
someone cute =3. ahhahaha. someone that wouldn't make a fuss about changing me and instead love me for who i am. ahahha. and yea, she has to have more than 90 piercings and a kezillion tattoos. T-T scratch that, i'll stick to the normal, innocent girl. =]
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone i guess. its easy to love, just not as easy to be loved.
7. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
i've waited for a fucking long time she better call me soon T_T
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
diediedie. give the guy a million bucks and ask him to fuck off. =D. wtf no. if she's happy with him its okay. ahahaa
9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
aloooot o.O
10. Is being tagged fun?
mmhmmmm. nothing better to do right. XD
11. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
i'd be 24, i wanna like. be almost ready to settle down. i hope by then everythings complete. lol. i wanna be the youngest of my batch to retire. yet if i do what i really wanted to do, i wouldn't mind working to death.
12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
my friends, and family XD
13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Ariel - she shows me the middle finger alot.
14. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
married and poor? XD but im not a girl right, so we'd have a shitty life, but being single is reaaaally shitty
15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
walk out to the living room and sleep a lil more
16. Would you give all in a relationship?
YES
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
ahahaha the one i feel is the right one.
18. What type of friends do you like?
people i can talk to, i can be comfortable with. people i can chill with anytime, anywhere
19. What type of friends do you dislike?
people who are fucking annoying and call you up in the middle of the night for a movie next next saturday -.-
sigh. i havent been updating recently and i guess i gave up on this blog. wth man i've been crazy tired the past month, dont know why. i've been like feeling sleepy at around 7-8 every fucking day. screw it. its been fucking boring la. not much places to go. chill only la at the guitar store. T-T. like fuck. i dont even have anything to blog about.
i watched like, ugly betty yesterday from like 12 to about 1 at night? thats like fucking 26 episodes. fucking bored still. i wish i knew people here in mt. kiara =/
fuck it. bye
Let's rock IT ; 4:38 AM ;
i have so many things i wanna say, but i guess when it comes to writing it down black and white all i can say right now is im sorry.
im sorry if i've neglected alot of you these past few months. im sorry if it seems im changing. im sorry if it seems that im not even near to the person you thought i was.
alot of things have been going on and all. its not that i wanna give any reasons, but i guess i just need time. i just want time to think about everything thats going on and i hope i'll be given a chance to recover.
i know most of ya'll don't even know who i am anymore. and its like i dont know you.
right now right here all im doing is asking all of you to forgive me, and give me some time.
i know this isn't the first big mistake i've done, but i just want a second chance.
i, really want to return the situation into what it was before, and how it was before. when everything was nice and calm, when everyone loved each other.
i dont regret the things i've done, and i've learnt alot. but i dont want it to break everything up. i've neglected my family, and my friends. everyone i've ever said i loved.
so im sorry. and, i miss all of you.
chea, and heidi all apologise too.
Let's rock IT ; 6:03 AM ;
oh shit nice tag. looooove tags XDD. i swear i do. 100 question one lagi suka. everythings been fine for many of you who are worrying XD. i havent commited any crimes lately maybe with chea just now lah, 5 times =P. here goes.
001. What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
Well Clinton called me, but it was a miss call lah. didnt pick up cause phone was charging. Well lets just say he's almost a brother. XD. hmmm if your thinking about calls that i answered then i guess Uncle Desmond. he called me for a drink. and now im highhhhh kekekeke
002. Do you ever turn ur cell phone off?
ahaha when i dont feel like talking to anyone. loud ring-tones annoy me alot so my phone is silent alot these days also. thats why i dont answer phones much, sorry po!
003.What happened at 10.00am today?
i wassss, with Uncle Desmond XD
004.When did you last cry?
not long ago for reasons i cannot admit AHAHAHHAHA
005. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
french fries?
006. What do you want in your life right now?
To be able to actually read music notes. Wish i learned earlier, fuck.
007. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
I just, start running o.O
008. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
i dont know whatever thats on my bed ends up on the floor in the morning anyways.
009. What bottom are you wearing now?
teeheee my boxers? =P aww ur making me blush ahahhaaahaha
010.What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
Huh? What bag? Oh u mean this ugly piece of crap? [and it goes on...] sachisms has to see this XDDD. I hope she'll understand lah being the blur case she is.
011. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
yea thats why Chea's having a very hard time now and why whoever thats ever said they loved me moved to Iraq. =D
012. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
AHAHHAHA I BORROWED KANG WOON'S BOXERS AND IM STILL WEARING IT =3
013. What was the last movie you caught? Indiana Jones, with my Bang Bang Shin Ki members and their girlfriends.
014. What are you proud of?
That i've managed to take care of myself especially in "certain" situations and did my thang in Bangkok Jazz XD
015. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
Heyy, awake? From Yuka. XDDD im her pin cushion lah when she cant sleep she'll text me and wake me up AISHHHHHH. ahhahaha jkjk
016. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Samba with Chea HOHOHOHO BU DI - VOS.
017. Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
Nicky YooChun by my fans and YoungWoong JaeJoong by those who love me more. and my bang bang shin ki members call me Mr.Charisma lah. =P i know ya'll love me i know.
018. What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?
Chea - You di Orange now? and then I'm here already. Cause we went for boys night out lah.
019. What time did you go to bed last night?
At 4.30. waiting for someone to sleep lah. T-T
020. Are you currently happy?
VERY HAPPY. thanks to Uncle Desmond hohohoho im flying nowwww XD
D021. Who gives you best advice?
Beyonce and BoA. and of course the almighty dad lah.
D022. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
YES YES WHENEVER I HAVE A CAN AT HOME ESPECIALLY AT THIS HOUR !
023. Who did you talk on phone last night?
Heidi lah. Semua pun "see first la see first" iyshhh. slap one time baru tau.
024. Is anything bugging you right now?
Hohoho my bands keyboardist Chea MyungSoo knows lah.
025. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
Chea, when we were talking about a certain flying cookie. It was like this lah, they were buying some kinda cake thing in Pav. And i bought a cookie, so while waiting for my change i openned it, and i put so much determination into openning it, the cookie flew above and behind the cashier. T_T. she gave me the wtf look and told me i could take another one.
026. Do you wear toe socks?
I dont, but Colin does doesn't he? XD
027. What was the last person you missed a call from?
Clinton lah! Asshole he and Heidi together same lah. "See first lah see first"
028. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Hmm i dont know. I have such a big heart even if a piece falls of i wouldnt notice. kekekeke. But she took the whole thing and ran of la. aish.
029. What annoys you most in a person?
Chea tell them! Wtf dont shhhhh. I'll tell each and everyone of you personally hohohoho. I know all of you are curious about me, the superstars life so i'll tell all of you hehe
030. Do you have a crush on anyone?
screw crushes. =/
031. Have you ever done cocaine?
no but i've done M&M's?
032. What is the color of ur room?
black, its all black cause I LOVE SATAN. omg kill me la T-T. its green-ish. XD
033. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
like Brenda? of course i would she's only worth 2 bucks a billion dollars is a STEAL. =]
034. Do you believe in the saying "talk in cheap"?
i dont know what the pepsi this means T-T
035. Who was the last person to lay in your bed?
I bet Colin knows this lah. Blonde girl he saw me with in KLCC? Maybe?
036. Who was the last person to hug you?
It was soo long ago i dont even remember.
037. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
...Colin did. nyeheheeehe
038. Do you have a life?
yea, my life revolves around trying to NOT get caught by the folks at home when i sneak out wtf.
039. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't?
I thought my phone died but the button to turn it on was spoiled T_T
040. What is the reason behind your profile song?
i dont like profile songs. too annoying. it just pops out at you.
041. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
I dreamt that all of us had this apartment and we had puppies and unlimited alcohol and freedom and it was heaven O.o. It was coooool.
042. Last time you smiled?
Just now? On the way home when a certain someone started puking out of the window cause she was too high? AHAHHAHA
043. Have you changed this year?
I guess i dont socialize as much, i go out with alot of the same people because i dont wanna take as much risks. Terlalu sakit la
044. What are you listening to right now?
ahahahha Please - VOS. teeheee
045. Are you talking to someone when you're doing this?
Only the most BORING person on earth, how wei ping -_-. terpaksalah, ahahhaha jkjk
046. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
wtf what kinda question is this, open T-T
047. Is there a quote you live by?
live fast, die young.
048. Do you want someone you can't have?
my dear YangPa. =[
049. Have you ever played an instrument?
the guitar and a lil bit of the piano, drums pun sikit.
050. What was the worst idea you've had in a week?
sneaking out? wasted 2 hours of staying awake and waiting
051. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
playing with kw? XDDDDD he kept flicking my head la T-T
052. Are you happy with your love life right now?
oh shut up
053. What song describe your love life?
Hmmmm, Topless - Breaking Benjamin hohohohoho. NO lah Cheon Dung - Ft. Island. Cheon Dung means thunder btw, which tells you how beautiful my love life is.
054. Does the person know that you like him/her?
she doesnt even know - Kiwi [Raise Your Voice] WTF IM BEING LAME
055. Who can always make you laugh?
ahahahahha all the "hot" waitresses me and chea came across.
056. Do you speak other languages other than English?
i speak tamil and thai. tq veli much.
057. Are you blond?
duhh
058. What's your middle name?
Hero? Yea I'm Nicholas Hero Siau =]. nice to meet you too.
059. What are you doing tomorrow?
Home i guess, but at night, hohohohohoo
060. What do you think you are like?
im charismatic and cool hor MichelleIsabelWeiPingShaniceJiaQi?
061. Who will you choose to die with?
i'll die with Chea, so he wont get to see more things than me. Rival rival ahahaha
062. Where have you been today?
Ampang Point, Provence, Dealova, and then DoubleZero XD. hohohoo sounds hamsup right all of the places.
063. What game do you play often?
Chess =)
064. Who are you missing right now?
the old Tiffany =[.
065. If you've to choose between friends and love, who will you choose?
it depends on who are my friends at that time and who is it i love. if i loved Chea that time and my friends were Edward and Ken, saya sanggup push Chea down a cliff la AHHAHAHHAHHAHA
066. What are you doing right now?
this beayooootiful tag and chatting with the princess and her boy.
067. Which primary school are you from?
sadly, ssg T-T
068. Name 3 colours that you like.
green, black, orange. O.o
069. What emotion you like to show?
i like to show my Ae Gyo. which means cute charm AHHAHAHHAA
070. What is life to you?
alcohol and getting high. WTF ahahahha love and family.
071. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
talk to the stuffed penguin i keep in my closet, hohohohoho i bug her everyday.
072. Who did you last chat in msn today with?
im talking to the princess and her boy now loh
073. Who do you admire the most?
Jon Bon Jovi and his vocal range man woah.
074. Which month are you born in?
March T-T
075. How are you feeling right now?
desperate yet high HOHOHOHO
076. What time is it now?
2.40AM
077. Where are you now?
computer room
078. What colour did you use to dye hair.
when i was in std.5 i died my hair blue AHHAHAHA WTF
079. Why are you doing this test?
looooove tags thats why
080. What do you do when you're moody?
call chea and pretend i have money for dinner but then go with 0. hahahahhaha chea im kidding "chincha don opseo"
081. At which age you wish to get married?
before 25 ahhahaha. its almost been in my mind lor.
082. Who is more important to you? Girlfriend or friends?
it depends who is who. XD. At time the girlfriend is more important, at times i need the guys.
083. Do you think you have enough confidence?
with my confidence all i can do is clean my room
084. Who is the person you trust the most?
right now Penguin. and BBSK. XD
085. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after rain?
isn't it a fact that theres always a rainbow after rain? wtf is this question man
085.If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
graduate Berklees and from there hit Hollywood LOL XD
086.What is your goal for this year?
fit as much music theory into my head.
087.Do you walk into every relationship hoping it'll last forever?
Of course, then whats the point of getting into one in the first place.
089. What feelings do you love the most?
I dont know im really happy when im around comfortable people. I guess the comfortable feeling. Sense of security lor.
090.Do you really think its Global Warming will kill us all?
nah when the ice caps melt we'll just swim around and become mermaids, i meant merpeople.
091. What feeling you hate the most?
is this the gayest question or what, when i feel hungry. thats when im most annoyed. ahahaahha
092. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
duh, if not?
093. Do you believe in God?
no, i believe i set my own fate and i can only have faith in myself and the people around me. to make it simple, when you pick up that syringe of heroin, who makes the decision whether to poke it in or throw it away, you or God T-T. who else lah. im not influencing anyone. just giving u my point of view. XD
094. Who cares for you the most?
i hope my friends care. ahahhaha penguin especially if she doesnt imma kick yuu
095. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
the people around me, and music.
096. Describe the person who tagged you
Colin - he's damn horny and loooves to touch me. you all know why lah my charisma attracts even guys hohohoho
097. Who's the most important person in your life?
at this point, penguin lah. i hope she doenst end up down here with the rest of us and i hope she'd be able to get through all the problems she might be going through la.
098. What would you feel that no one no longer cares for you?
ahahahahaa i'd go to my forever love, A to the L to the C-O-H to the O and then LLLLL.
099. What if your stead two-timed you?
i'd poke one eye out of him, then another one outta her. C=
100. What are u relieved about?
That im finally done. Oh fuck.
Remove a question and put in yer own ya ya ya.
I have, nothing more to say.
Let's rock IT ; 10:35 AM ;
teeheee chea was high lah
retards forever T-T
err, yea. about that...
ahahhaha ariel doesnt like fishes. emo-ness o.O
Hohohoho hello. yea so we went to pavillion on monday, ate, watched a movie, walked around, fish spa. fun fun fun fun =P. looong time since the whole group went out. carmen lah! selalu bbk. sigh. pictures ripped from brenda =P
nothing much to talk about, aiks.
have i mentioned how annoying it is for me to see couples all lovey-dovey in public especially when im alone? aish.
Let's rock IT ; 7:12 AM ;
sigh, the holidays are here. im expecting a fiesta hohohohoho
oh yes i've been talking to brenda and she said alooot of disgusting things to me. sigh, i dont know whats gotten into her. ever since wms, sigh. chea's out with kc so this had nothing to do with him.
Βяeпdά. forever원 says:
my pepet's so fresh okay
Βяeпdά. forever원 says:
then don't continue, cuz if u continue im going to let u hisap my pepet.
Βяeпdά. forever원 says:
if u think mine is not then go for my dog's la
ewww.
ahahahha i hope we can get drunk and ride around all holiday. teeheehee.
yesterday was rather fun. partying was involved also. nyehehehe.
yea, i read the tiffany thing, chea and sherry sent it to me T-T.
as i fought back, i realised all i was doing was lying to myself. trying to prove myself that this time, i didn't misjudge another loved one. trying to tell myself i didnt fall in love with the wrong person. yes i felt THAT attached to her.
dissapointment tsk tsk.
everyday into my life i do more and more wrong, i test myself more and more. i question my dreams more and more. whats gonna happen from here?
well i guess i'll blog more tomorrow or something. thailand was an okay-okay trip. nothing different from a normal holiday except the whole bunch was there. at least sachie liked her gift.
sigh, still upset over tiffany. the bitch
Let's rock IT ; 12:32 AM ;
another one going. even if we didnt spend that much time with each other and we dont know each other that much, im still gonna miss it lah. take care of yourself and dont get in trouble kay? keep in touch and stay the way you are. except dont get caught. if you know what i mean XD
no kc im not talking about kw in this post. T.T i'll make one for him when he leaves
dilemma dilemma dilemma. i mean, i know what i wanna do with life and i have goals and targets and all that shit. but i still wanna do what i want to do and what i think i can do. my goals WILL be accomplished and my targets WILL be hit but along the way i still wanna have fun. you guys should understand that you've raised me this way, to be more open to the outside world. im not blaming you at all, im not blaming myself. i wanted things to be this way and whether its right or not its what i want. you've always taught me that everything at the end of the day is my choice, whether anyone likes it or not. everything im doing is what i chose right now, im not forced to do anything. you brought me up well, and im sure i'll bring my kids up the way you did, but dont think you raised another rebel. i dont believe that its in our blood. its just, who i wanted to be all along. i love you guys really much but you have to understand me at times and not be worried most of the time. i just wanna get away from it all at times. happy mothers day =]
Let's rock IT ; 8:02 AM ;